“For Thou does not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it; Thou art not pleased with burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; A broken and a contrite heart, O God, Thou wilt not despise”(Psalm 51:16-17).
“Tears are designed to cleanse you”.
I cannot remember who told me this, but whoever it was thanks! For most of my life I’ve looked at crying as a sign of weakness as an indicator of our lack of faith in God…oh how wrong I’ve been. I have grown to the point that I readily cry and release. We cannot handle our problems alone.
When I cry I am crying to cleanse. Allowing God to take control. Telling Him “Lord I can’t…I won’t…please help!” or sometimes I cry out of joy saying “Lord I couldn’t…I didn’t…thanks!!”.
As Christians, we have to be careful about judging those who cry in worship, during prayer, when sharing their testimonies, etc. While we’re quick to speculate on what they must’ve done wrong that week to cry the way they are crying, they have made it a step above us because they have acknowledge how it’s supposed to be.
We should never rely on our own skills, intelligence, or experience to get to where God’s called us to. The moment we can do it alone, we’ve stepped out of our destiny. A mission that doesn’t require God is worthless!
As I journey through this season with God, He is testing me and shaping me. I have cried so hard, at times my eyes were burning, cheeks raw, nose sore, chest hurting…but you know what I wasn’t? I wasn’t heavy anymore! No longer worried! No longer upset! No longer in control…crying, weeping, surrendering to God are healthy steps in our relationship with Him.
We have to let go and letting go is hard. It requires humbling ourselves, acknowledging that we’re not smart enough, that we’re not strong enough, that we don’t have the skills, the connections or the capabilities…crying is an outward sign of surrender and submission.
Let’s work on surrendering to God. This is rough and tough…believe me, I KNOW! I am NeYo’s “Miss Independent”, but you know what…I’m not God’s Miss Independent, I’m His daughter! Just as I have to drop my pride and arrogance and desire for seperation when I need the help of my parents, I have to do this, even more so, with God. He loves us and He wants us to come to Him with EVERYTHING.
Do it. Let Him have your issues and let Him have your insecurities. Give Him your doubts, your fears, your broken dreams. Let them go and let God take control. You’ll be amazed at the peace and joy they will immediately take the place of the pain and fear you were hoarding.
“Whenever you find tears in your eyes, especially unexpected tears,
it is well to pay the closest attention. They are not only telling the secret
of who you are, but more often than not of the mystery of where you have come from and are summoning you to where you should go next.”
(Frederick Buechner, Whistling in the Dark)